Why so serious?

 
Nothing in life has a meaning deeper than the meaning you give it.
You first think you are "somebody", you build yourself an ego, a role to play. At a certain point in life (usually when you`re young) it actually makes sense. You are this or the other. You are a doctor or a student, a good person or a sinner, or a scientist, or somebody who is insecure. There`s billions of people and just as many egos. And you go on playing your part feeling happy and feeling sad at times.

When somebody reiterates your ego, you call him friend. When somebody makes you feel insecure, you call him enemy. But the same person can become your best friend a moment later for simply starting to feed into your ego. And right after that, an enemy again for he did something to offend you. The truth is, they are all the same. The one who applies labels is you. It`s not their deeds that made you choose. It`s your own projections and your own mind(less) programming that brought you in this situation in the first place. And nothing will change until you remove the veil off your self created illusions.

A while back I saw a movie, don`t remember all the details but it was about quantum physics. They say humans are bombarded every second with 14 million bits of information. From that huge quantity, with our 5 senses, we only bring in a few thousands. And even then, all that information is being filtrated by our expectations, our prejudice and our mind barriers. In conclusion, we are blind and deaf to what life really is. We acknowledge less than 1% of what happens around us. What we see is nothing but a dream... our own imagination.

We don`t see life as it is, we only see what we want to see. When you know this, life suddenly becomes unlimited. You see the unbounded potential in each and every situation. You stop making excuses and you go out living.

How can you say that X is your friend, and Y is your enemy when there is absolutely no certainty whatsoever. How can you ever be sad again when you know that sadness is nothing but a state of mind? Your mind. How can you be frustrated or angry with life and situations when you know it`s of your own making.

How can you be angry at a dream when you can simply wake up?

Well, tonight all my friends are my enemies and all my enemies are my friends. Enjoy the game.

Instead

I don`t believe in words and I have no faith in gods.
Their scriptures seem so cold and their clothes too old.
I have no trust in philosophy. It`s human mind atrophy.
I put no weight on thought. They are long lasting not.

Instead I love the site, the beauty of the night.
The white of the snows, the way in which wind blows.
The green of the tree where a wolf pack roams free.
The howl of its wolves who follow no rules.
Amazed by her hair curl and the smile of a girl,

A kiss on her lips and a touch on her hips,

The softness of her voice making my heart rejoice.
The blossom of a flower and a spring rain shower.
The scent of a rose which makes time froze.
The silky morning dew mirroring sky`s blue.
The play of a child who knows to live life wild.
Take the mindless set, I choose life instead.

An Ye Harm None, Do What Ye Will

Bide within the Law you must, in perfect Love and perfect Trust.
Live you must and let to live, fairly take and fairly give.
(The Wiccan Rede)

I have always tried to treat people the way I expected to be treated in return. Time ago I used to think that it was needed if you want to lead a "pleasant" life and to have people be nicer towards you. And they were. Life does indeed give you what you deserve. Treating others the way you would like to be treated does work. But... yes, there`s a but... it didn`t yesterday.

Details are unimportant. Somebody did to me something I wouldn`t do to that person or to anybody else before. Something which my system of "morals" would prevent me from doing. Why? Because I don`t do that. Because something in me stops it from happening.

And thinking about it, it might be that that "Mr. Morals" inside of me is my greatest enemy on the path towards freedom. That voice that says, "Don`t do that. It`s not nice. Don`t add to the world`s negativity. Think about your image. Think about what other people will think of you."
Of course, in a way it`s all right to live following a set of rules. That stops the whole world going crazy. But what if those rules keep you in slavery? Indeed, treating others how would you like to be treated helps you lead a more pleasant life. But you`re still chained to something even though your chain is made of gold and not iron. It`s still a chain.

So what to do in this situation? Start acting against your mindset and system of morals? Do exactly the opposite and be rude or straightforwardly hurt people? Of course that might crush your previous morality and... kindness. But fighting fire with fire would NOT give you freedom. It would simply change your system of rules, your mindset with another. So the answer here would be, rather than analyzing your current personality and find flaws and try to change, better just let it go. Just be aware. Just accept that the world is a crazy place and it can not be logically understood .

You can be a moral person all you like and one day somebody will treat you so unfairly that you will have a big problem dealing with the whole thing and not have a break down. Life indeed cannot be controlled. And given the fact that we use less than 10% of our brain capacity, and that with our limited physical senses we perceive less than 1% of what really happens around us... we can safely assume that we are blind and deaf to what life really is.

And even though I knew all that, there was still a battle inside my head, between the "me who felt hurt" (the ego) by that other person`s action  and the "observer" - the one who doesn`t get involved and who simply watches life unfolding any way it chooses to :). And this is what worries me or better said what is bothering me. It`s something I have to discover or to learn in order to move forward, to reach that freedom from mind control.

Takes me thinking to what Eckhart Tolle used to say about the pain body, about that negative energy which takes control over us if we let it. And it is precisely what startled me last night, that thing that "disrupted" my peaceful existence and begun to feed into my own negativity. I started to emit judgements and criticize another person because it wouldn`t live by my set of rules and morals. And this "pain body" would have grown even stronger if it wasnt for the "observer" - my awareness. If I kept on thinking that way then no good would came out of it.

So in the end, guess I have to be grateful. To give thanks to life for showing me one of the issues I have to go through in order to reach the other side. It showed me that there is a pain body inside which is still strong and to find a way to stop feeding into it.

Onwards...