Non-mind

The non-mind is a lightning, a current of energy that burns you inside out. It starts with the thought. It continues with observing the thought and with stepping outside the thought. It ends with a scent, a flavor that cannot be expressed in words. Which is understandable after all words are expressed thoughts. No thought can express the non-thought, the non-mind.

You feel both full and empty same time - full of being and empty of illusion. This emptiness cannot be regarded as something negative, like boredom or unhappiness. The negative can only exist in the presence of the positive. This emptiness contains none of it. It`s void of any kind of emotion.

This current sweeps away your entire body, bit by bit, and eventually you start to feel that it is not just inside but also outside. This current is connected with the outer world as well, the energy going in and out as it chooses, like a wave in the ocean. That is when you start doubting the existence of your own body. How can you have a material existence when you clearly feel the wave inside out. Your "static" body is actually a movement of energy, a wave of particles.

You are unlimited. You have no beginning and no ending. This wind can take you miles away and it is only for the consciousness to hold it together. In the absence of this consciousness, nothing holds this wave in place. You would dissipate into oblivion.

In the absence of the mind and the thought, you experience a freedom you never did before. Life tastes sweeter, and not just metaphorically. However, even now you feel a bit caged. Why not stopping the consciousness all together? Why not dissipate completely into the Universe? Ultimate freedom - the end of everything.

Your body is not non-mind. Your body is mind. Your body is a cage. When you step outside the mind, your body feels liquid or even further less dense. This might explain how the American shamans were able to juggle with their own energy field, to transform themselves into whichever they desired and to completely leave the world when time came without leaving a corpse behind.

Or maybe the non-mind is not the ultimate answer. Maybe it`s just the opposite of the mind, just a creation to ensure duality on this plane. In this case none would be real except this dance of particles, held together by a thought. The ultimate answer is yet to be found, not in words at least.

The further you go down the lane the more questions you have and the less answers you are given. Life is here and now and not in these words you reading.