Non-mind

The non-mind is a lightning, a current of energy that burns you inside out. It starts with the thought. It continues with observing the thought and with stepping outside the thought. It ends with a scent, a flavor that cannot be expressed in words. Which is understandable after all words are expressed thoughts. No thought can express the non-thought, the non-mind.

You feel both full and empty same time - full of being and empty of illusion. This emptiness cannot be regarded as something negative, like boredom or unhappiness. The negative can only exist in the presence of the positive. This emptiness contains none of it. It`s void of any kind of emotion.

This current sweeps away your entire body, bit by bit, and eventually you start to feel that it is not just inside but also outside. This current is connected with the outer world as well, the energy going in and out as it chooses, like a wave in the ocean. That is when you start doubting the existence of your own body. How can you have a material existence when you clearly feel the wave inside out. Your "static" body is actually a movement of energy, a wave of particles.

You are unlimited. You have no beginning and no ending. This wind can take you miles away and it is only for the consciousness to hold it together. In the absence of this consciousness, nothing holds this wave in place. You would dissipate into oblivion.

In the absence of the mind and the thought, you experience a freedom you never did before. Life tastes sweeter, and not just metaphorically. However, even now you feel a bit caged. Why not stopping the consciousness all together? Why not dissipate completely into the Universe? Ultimate freedom - the end of everything.

Your body is not non-mind. Your body is mind. Your body is a cage. When you step outside the mind, your body feels liquid or even further less dense. This might explain how the American shamans were able to juggle with their own energy field, to transform themselves into whichever they desired and to completely leave the world when time came without leaving a corpse behind.

Or maybe the non-mind is not the ultimate answer. Maybe it`s just the opposite of the mind, just a creation to ensure duality on this plane. In this case none would be real except this dance of particles, held together by a thought. The ultimate answer is yet to be found, not in words at least.

The further you go down the lane the more questions you have and the less answers you are given. Life is here and now and not in these words you reading.

Nothingness Enthroned

 "The elephant is a distortion in space, its spindly legs contrasting the idea of weightlessness with structure." - The Elephants, painting by Salvador Dali

 You look around and you see a room, a chamber full of objects. They form and define your space. To an extent they are part of your "persona". They speak about who and what you are, about what you stand for.

But what if instead of concentrating on the object, you loose yourself in the space between. What if, instead of seeing the end-of-the-road object, you see the void that supports the whole structure. Is an empty room really empty or is it full with substance? And if you fill your room with objects (and accordingly your mind with fleeting thoughts) doesn`t that take away some of your substance, some of your immortal nature? For objects come and go but there is something that is eternal.

There is a seed of creation that never dies or disappear. Unfortunately our kind is only interested in possessions, and I wonder if not, in a moment of solitude, we mirrored the emptiness inside of us and, scared of it we ran away and lost our awareness in this ocean of material illusions. What would happen if instead of running away we would embrace the emptiness and see where it takes us. Why be afraid? What do we have to loose?... Our minds probably, but maybe that is the whole point.

The emptiness is all around us. The emptiness is also inside. Going back to the quantum physics, they say that the solidity of the matter is an illusion. Even the apparent solidity of the human body is almost 100% empty space, this is how huge are the distances between the atoms comparing to their size. Even more than that, if you split an atom you will find the same substance - emptiness. What remains is more like a wave, a frequency (does that sound similar to our thoughts brainwaves by any chance?) - like the sounds of a unmanifested music. The whole matter is nothing but a wave of energy, a wave of thoughts, which we choose to see in a certain way and which gives birth to everything around us, our body, our chamber, our whole world. Our dream...

The Unmanifested is not present in this bipolar world but still it forms the substance from which this world was created. What does that mean but the fact that our true nature is in the void? We were born out of darkness and in darkness we shall return. This nothingness is our mother and our father. It gives us birth, it fills our space with "nothing", it nurtures us and helps us back on the right track for when we get trapped in the object.

So why fear the emptiness? Why go back to the mundane for fear of boredom and find things to do in order to pass the time? To continuously recreate dreams and illusions in the hope that this way we will be "something" or "somebody" when the truth is that we are nothing.

And if you taste this truth you might find out that this emptiness is more fulfilling than any object. Ironically, in the bosom of stillness you will find that which sets the world in motion.

Until next time have a day filled with emptiness and may the nothingness in one mirror the nothingness in the other.